1. kpublbu
   Member

   VA
   Thank you.

   Hopefulone
   If you feel so inclined to point out a fault I am already painfully aware of, you're welcome to elaborate on it publicly. If however you have desire to see this broken one healed from these faults, I will certainly not attempt to discourage any prayers on my behalf.

   I have become intimately acquainted with many who have desired to "help" me by pointing out the truth about all of my shortcomings along the way. Unfortunately, as you can see from parts one and two of my testimony, this has been to little avail.

   Please keep in mind I have not yet posted part 3, and am considering not doing so, while also requesting parts 1 and 2 be deleted altogether.

   EDIT: I know too well what it is like to not fear man, and serve God and His truth only. Like when the Holy Spirit moved me to walk in front of 2,000 people, interupt the speaker in mid-sentence and deliver a message from Him that brought revival to the whole place; or like when I travelled 9 hours 3 weekends in a row to a place I knew not and to people I knew not and God wrought miraculous things and revival. If I really wanted praise of men, I would have included these things, among others in my testimony.

   However, the lack of sharing His truth in love many times is what provided me no shortage of deserved wounds, and for which now I suffer trying to recover that which was given to me originally -- a zeal for the truth, and yet tempered always with love. I recognize many on this forum who have a zeal and knowledge from God, and yet have to go still through the same purging fire, thinking that they are sharing in love, and do have a semblance of love, but have yet to know the utter pain and depravity of feeling His heart for hurting even the smallest one with words not originating in love, even if true.

   Posted 1 year ago #

2. thos
   Member

   kpublbu,

   I think there is a certain accountability working through this forum which helps to make it a safe place to share as you have.

   Can I suggest as you have expressed, keeping the dialogue open.

   As you share, two things will happen as you no doubt know, some will be threatened by your openness, and others will identify with your journey.

   The former will try and correct in the flesh, the latter will stand with you in familiar places.

   Through it all, may His Wisdom be found here and your walk strengthened in Him.

   Blessings,

   Carl Emerson.

   Posted 1 year ago #

3. Roger Souden
   Member

   Cory, I agree with Carl with his advice above :-)

   Our 'testimony' of our walk with Christ Jesus as Lord, is our experience and is rich with the truths that we have learnt from Him.

   One's walk will differ from anothers in many aspects, yet there will be similarities in those walks. Whilst some may try to critique or appraise 'your' walk - how can a person appraise what the Lord Jesus has taken you or I through..?

   A part of your recent walk, was your belief, understanding, leading - to share parts of your life testimony on this forum.

   Whilst some may share their past errors and mistakes with you and others, in an attempt to help those ones not fall into the same snare - none of us know exactly what Almighty God has is the future for ourselves or any other.

   I believe that God will use many things, of His choosing, to refine, purify, train, and edify each one of His disciples(unique creations) as He prepares them for His work.

   In every situation I believe we must continually point each other toward the Master Craftsman Himself, Almighty God, and always point others to the risen Christ Jesus as Lord of all, and the only One through whom eternal life may be found.

   In His love,
   Roger

   Posted 1 year ago #

4. kpublbu
   Member

   Thank you brethren.

   God bless you.

   Humbled,

   C

   Posted 1 year ago #

5. zealous
   Member

   Cory,

   What an honor it is that God thinks it worth His while to test and try us!
   Workmen only spend time and trouble on materials and tools they can make something out of.

   God will perfect that which concerns you.

   Be sober and vigilant.

   May we ALL walk worthy of the Lord Jesus.

   God Bless you.

   Posted 1 year ago #

6. kpublbu
   Member

   Thank you friend, for the good encouragement. It is true, and from the precious word of God. God bless you.

   C

   Posted 1 year ago #

7. poppie
   Member

   Cory,
   I feel that our Father wishes me to share a little of my walk with you.

   I'm not quite sure why, as I consider that mine is a fairly boring tale.

   If not for the early intervention of the Holy Spirit,I would have suffered much harm as a child, and so begins the tale of my days.

   There are no great dramas' but what there is, is the constant presence of my Lord.

   He has ALWAYS been there when I needed Him, throughout the difficulties of life.

   Illness, not enough money, judgement of others, rejection because of my faith, raising a difficult child and so it goes.

   Placed alongside the difficulties (of which I am well aware that we all suffer) were the richnessess that came from knowing Him.

   Seeing the beauty of His creation, almost as if He were pointing it out to me; the threads of gold that He wove through the fabric of my being.

   Hearing the music that underlies everything in the out-of-doors.
   Have you noticed just how noisy it can be when out in the fields and meadows?

   Streams gurgle and splash, in the springtime the birds positively shout their joy to all that have ears to hear.
   Bumblebees drone sonorously about their business.
   The wind whispers among the leaves and branches, sometimes rising to a roar when moved to do so.

   Such beauty that He has surrounded us with,
   green fields strewn with wildflowers, cloud shadows moving randomly, the hares and the humble hedgehog, the ladybirds and the honeybees, all, all part of Him and through Him part of us.

   I think that perhaps He would have you also to be aware of what is around you? all of us perhaps? need to see that we are a part of all this beauty and that in His loving regard He sees us also as His beautiful children, whom He loves.

   For He does love us and would seek to rescue us from the constant ugliness that the world would seek to drench us in, in the guise of 'reality'.

   This is a sick ugliness, unhealthy, the world scorns optimism, will call you a 'pollyanna'if you so indulge, seeing the best and not the worst of a situation.

   We need to know His Word, His written Word and also His created Word that surrounds us all our days, both are uplifting and strengthening; both are the signature of our Fathers hand.

   May He make His face to shine upon you and grant you peace...poppie

   Posted 1 year ago #

8. kpublbu
   Member

   Poppie
   The grace of God in your precious many years is evident in what you write, as is also His love. Your post made me tear up, and I do testify it was from Him, and what I needed at this moment.

   God bless you dear one, you are precious. And thank you.

   Cory

   Posted 1 year ago #

9. nicole
   Member

   Poppie,

   I hope many come to this website and read the beauty that you have placed on paper (forum) of all the things the Lord shows us, each and every day.

   Right now in Texas, we are having an actual cold wave for a few days and while I was walking the dog today he and I were the only ones on this trek / There are several bike trails of wilderness nesseled together and it causes one to forget that the flying planes come in for a landing in this area , or the city cars, firetrucks and police cars come blaring down the roadways.

   Some how I managed to just loose sight of all this and focus on the wheat that was actually bowing down in the wind and as I saw this, out popped a roadrunner. (never seen one before) and then the deer came and overhead were the blue jays and mocking birds as they tweeted their songs. Out front of me and the dog ran two squirrells that were playing and chasing one another and all of this against the noise that I somehow forgot about and as I thought of these things tears came to my eyes because in the midst of pain and suffering that many are going through, one can just turn and eye and see HIS GLORY in living color and give thanks unto HIM for HIS loving kindness and mercy.

   I too, got a glimpse of the Lord today , that just had me singing in my heart as I briefly bowed to HIM and gave HIM thanksgiving and love.

   All too soon, it ended , but what didn't end was HIS LOVE and the memories of those moments.

   I truly believe the Lord is healing many of us of so many different things and He is revealing to us things about HIM that we sometimes take for granted or we are in a hurry to enjoy them. Many of us are "healing" from different things and situations or illnesses and yet, I remember lying in a bed for several weeks many years ago, and a hummingbird feeder was the only thing on a tree and the Lord would send beautiful hummers to feed from their feeder. The Glory of the Lord is always there, sometimes we have to look for it, but it is not far from us, normally.

   Some folks in false ministries want to look for the "secret" things of the Lord, the bible and "getting out of the box" of our thinking so we can take a "majic carpet ride to the 3rd heaven" ---

   That is all false, what they are missing is tragic, because the real beauty are the things that are right before our eyes.- we just have to look. We may want to see the glass half empty but in reality it is really half full becoming fuller as we focus on the Lord and give HIM the glory.

   He revealed to me a beautiful world just at my fingertips and loves to be Praised for it and He also reminded me that no matter what circumstance I am in , He is right there w/ me , never leaving me and bringing me through it. Some days might be w/ showers and some w/ fog, but HIS "CLIMATE" never changes - that is the climate of HIS MAJESTIC LOVE and MERCY.

   God bless you,
   Nicole

   Posted 1 year ago #

10. Roger Souden
    Member

    Poppie, your comment reminds me of the excitment of childhood 'discoveries' (revelations) from God of His creation.

    I grew up in the country, UK, and was allowed to roam the fields and lanes, streams and woods around the villages that we lived in.

    One 'magical' moment every day is the dawn chorus of bird song, starting before sunrise. I am blessed that I can still hear this God given music, even though we live in a city.

    *

    To All,
    Scientists are still mystified as to 'why' and for what purpose is this bird song. I can remember, a few years ago, either hearing or reading, a Creation Scientist explain that trees, bushes, and all plants, if removed from all sound will not thrive.

    He suggests that the dawn chorus of bird song, each day, around the world, 'awakens' the trees and plants - so that as the sunrises, their leaves are already prepared to absorb the light that is necessary for life.

    This speaks to me of an organised universe, that required a Creator (Almighty God) to not only speak it into existence, but requires that same Creator to 'maintain' life in His Creation.

    If any have not heard a dawn chorus at all, or not recently, rise early (before dawn) and go listen - I know that you to will be very aware of God's existence around you.

    You too will be better prepared for the day :-)

    In His love,
    Roger

    *

    Added: Nicole just read your comment too, Praise God :-)

    Posted 1 year ago #

11. poppie
    Member

    Hi all,
    I thought to share with you an evening walk with my dog.

    When I take my dog for a walk in the evening.

    As dusk draws its' purple veil over creation and the sky turns all shades of silvery pink.

    As a flight of birds draws a pattern in an opal sky beginning to be sprinkled with stars.

    When a hare stands erect in the long grass, then rockets away in the fading light.

    Followed by another that I didn't see at all until it moved.

    A soft nose, asking for a rub, a gentle whicker of greeting.

    A frisking of foals in the golden light of sundown.

    Soft blue shadows under the trees, spreading upwards into night.

    The slow rise of the golden orange moon, hanging huge on the horizon.

    Draped with veils of silver stars.

    All of these, signatures
    Written by my Fathers hand.

    Bringing with them a sense of wonder, and a sense of His presence.

    Which is so precious and so fleeting in this busy, noisy and distracting world.

    God gives us all our own place in this his world.

    This is mine.

    I share it with you willingly, if you but look you will find at your doorstep a world of your own, waiting for you, a healing beautiful thing made for you by your God, who waits for you to share it with Him.

    p.s.no Cory, I hadn't seen Toms post, I guess that our God was at work there?

    Be blessed and be a blessing...poppie

    Posted 1 year ago #

12. poppie
    Member

    Nicole,
    I loved reading about your wildlife, so different to ours.

    I have never seen a roadrunner, humming bird, squirrel or blue jays. To read about them was lovely.

    I agree with you about the 'secret' things. What do we need with those when we have the whole wonderful creation of God right on our doorstep.

    Thank you for sharing that with us and may God bless your days...poppie

    Posted 1 year ago #

13. Hope
    Member

    I admire you Cory, and your willingness to leave the safety of tradition and explore new paths and ideas. I can tell you are very committed to the Lord and to scripture, so I feel confident that I can read and consider your thoughts. Thats not to say I don't pray about them, of course I do, as I would ask him about any new direction, but with you I feel the love of truth through your words.

    I also think that he is teaching us new things, teaching us himself, correcting many false doctrines that have become entrenched in our lives.

    Having a pratctising witch in the family we have always had to be careful spiritually, when we moved to the south island (NZ) many strange and bizzare things began happening, light bulbs popping out, a toaster falling to the floor, whereby the electric jug tipped over and ran into it, and such things. While I never felt threatened, more like something just sweeping through and causing problems, we did speak to our pastor about it. He reccommended a fellow pastor from Christchurch who had a ministry in the feild, having been a warlock himself.

    To cut a long story short he prayed through the house, praying and binding through the blood of Jesus etc, adding some things I thought a little odd. Anyway that night a presence came into the bedroom, and when I prayed about it was given this mans name. So I rebuked it, thought I must consider this in the morning and went back to sleep. Next day when I prayed I felt God told me this pastor had never left witchcraft, but was a wolf in sheeps clothing. After worrying over this for a few weeks, I eventually told the pastor where I was what I felt. Which of course wasn't accepted. But some weeks later I found out he had been cast out of his church because it had come to light that he was still inddeed involved within his coven.

    The reason I am mentioning this is because it bothered me that such a man could pray the blood of Jesus over things, so sought the truth to this prayer trend myself, and found it unscriptural. The blood is cleansing, by his stripes we are healed, but not used this way. His name however is a strong and mighty tower, is a refuge for our souls, is a pillar we can lean on, the righteous run into the name of the LORD. And he didn't really use the name like this.

    The reason I mention this is that I sought the truth with God himself, and I admire your courage to do this is such a dedicated way, and to share it with us.

    Thank you for this courage, it keeps me thinking, and that is good for me.

    God Bless
    Hope

    PS sorry it got so long

    Posted 1 year ago #

14. Peter Lawrence
    Member

    Hi all...just like to address my post to Cory this time.

    Hi Cory....well you sailed through the honeymoon just fine and you have really contributed in a special way amongst the fellowship here. I have been blessed and appreciated many of the things you have shared, and especially in the manner which you share things. I am looking forward to part three of your testimony if God leads you to share further!

    Posted 1 year ago #

15. kpublbu
    Member

    All
    Thank you for sharing. Really. All of your recent posts readlly do revive and refresh my heart today. And make me thankful in many ways. God bless you.

    Hope
    Thank you for not keeping it short. Your post really ministered to me. I feel... broken, with His love. So moved. Um...
    ...
    I recently learned, through this forum, a revelation, that we can pray "a hedge about us". I have done this every day with the exception of two days (I forgot). Those two days were markedly different from the others. I believe it was truly a revelation from God, and think that the same would apply concerning witchcraft(?)

    I do know that after we moved into this house in 2005, some time after that I dedicated it to the Lord, and the land it is on. I did this based on the input of an eldery saint. She also suggested I use a touch of olive oil when consecrating the doorways, etc. This seemed a little "out there" to me, but I did it anyway.

    Not sure if it has had any significance or not, but we do not have in this home any of the problems that I have been accustomed to having in the other places I have lived. I suppose it certainly didn't hurt, lol.

    Hope, thank you for that, I agree about the blood. I do believe we can plead and should plead the blood of Jesus over ourselves or others in times of need. But as far as the application you mentioned, I have not thought about it or seen someone do this, but I don't see it in Scripture.

    I recently read a book about "mind control". I was led by the Spirit explicitly to do so. Some of the things in the book were so far out to me I had never fathomed them before, and yet I believed every word. And I am sure it was the Spirit of God causing the belief. Merely a few days ago, I spoke with a person on the phone that I have developed a relationship in the last month. As this person shared their testimony, it became evident, without me sharing a thing, that everything I read in that mind control book, this person had experienced. Thereby re-affirming everything the Lord taught me in the book, but what was amazing was the fact that this child of God, whom I have grown to have a deep appreciation for in the Lord, was able to share freely about the experiences, without having to stop and explain every small thing, or in fact some very complex things. It was such an amazing moment I was truly humbled at seeing before my very eyes the reasons God had me research something that just seems out of this world. And so this goes right along with what you were saying Hope, it is very important to be open to what the Lord may teach us. The material may seem strange, but a person's life and or soul may literally hang in the balance, even though we are unaware. The fact that I was able to understand freely the testimony was a witness to this person of the Lord's love towards them, in that He had me read this material, believe it like a complete fool, and then the Lord built trust in the relationship until the time when this all happened. I think we were both deeply touched.

    There, I matched your post in length. :) Lol.

    God bless you,

    Cory

    Peter
    Just saw your post. You also have a been a blessing to me, brother. I appreciate your kind words and encouragement. Thank you so much for sharing the love of Jesus. There's still much healing taking place, and it comes through the love of our good Lord, who demonstrates by His manifest Spirit to us the truth of His love evidenced on the cross; in that the body makes edification of itself in love, and this often takes place in speech.

    I need to take some time just to consider how wonderful the Lord is for considering an ant like me. An ant is kind of big for my comparison to how I feel, but it'll do I guess. Lol.

    Posted 1 year ago #

16. UncompromisedTruth
    Member

    ........... Kpub, maybe the Lord sees more in you than you realize. As I recall, an ant is so exceedingly strong that it can lift many times its own weight. Proportionately, this makes it the strongest creature on earth.

    "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

    Posted 1 year ago #

17. kpublbu
    Member

    Thanks, UT. He probably does. I think I'll be able to continue to see myself more properly--as He does--as the healing continues. God bless you for the good word.

    Cory

    Posted 1 year ago #

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