Blessings to all. Several months ago I posted in this forum seeking help.
To summarize, I had attended a “signs and wonders revival” service seeking God’s aid to improve my troubled relationship with my girlfriend. Intrigued and moved by how others were so moved, I convinced my girlfriend to come along. We went to service every day for almost a month. During one service, when the evangelist laid hands on my girlfriend for healing, I saw this darkness descend. It came rushing down the walls of the church and over every persons head and just settled there. It felt heavy and I started swaying thinking, “this is what they mean by being drunk in the spirit.” However, I was actually freaked out and confused by it. I have never witnessed anything supernatural before. When I started asking questions, I was dismissed and treated coldly. Later on during revival, bad things were happening. Me and my girlfriends “demons” were stirring and we were getting tested. It came to a climax during Easter week. That Easter Sunday, we broke up. My girlfriend was sucked into the church and I left…only because I was being dismissed among other things. Then I did my research and ended up on this website asking for help. In my post, I was freaking out and desperate.
Then along comes a wonderful person many of you may know, named Jeremy. She helped me tremendously with prayer and counsel. She ministered me and spent so much time answering my questions and listening to every detail of my account. She even help interpret my dreams which ended up being prophetic and sending me information that helped me very much.
After six months of the breakup with my girlfriend. I bumped into her. We started talking. She was delivered! Literally. She told me during that time, she got interested in deliverance and started coughing all night one night. She told me how cold and wrong she has been for most of her life and couldn’t see the light. Now we are married. Yes, its true! She is a changed person! Praise God! I know it is because of many of the prayers of people in this forum…Jeremy especially and of course my prayers…but of course all credit to our Heavenly Father! Abba!
What I have learned...
God is in control. God works it out in His own time. I was so full of myself with my idealistic ways that even with Gods blessings he gave me the answers to my questions, it wasn’t enough. I went to another pastor in another church to clarify about all this kundalini false revival. He said it’s like eating chicken…swallow the good, spit out the bones. At first I was angry that I was dismissed. He said he was at the Toronto outpouring and that even with all the weird manifestations, Gods Spirit was still working miracles in others. Ok, I believe that, and to me that shows that in the presence of “evil” Gods grace and mercy still showers us with His blessings and protection. However, this is not to be easily dismissed as a chicken bone analogy in a fortune cookie world! Why? Because there are many people like me who feel moved in their spirit to go to church and connect with God, who know nothing about false revival, kundalini, or the Bible warning for discernment and proper guidelines for talking in tounges and laying on of hands, etc. I was ignorant of these things! If I would have known I would never had let anyone lay hands on me. It caused a huge rift and division in the Pentecostal movement and people were leaving their churches! A lot of people don’t know this, including pastors, evangelists, priests, worship leaders, etc…but the facts are there. To me, this is close to spiritual rape. Therefore, do not minimize this as a chicken bone analogy, there needs to be awareness! There needs to be facts! This showed me how pure the Holy Spirit is and how monumentally difficult it can be to usher it in. I learned more of obedience. I learned not to be so angry anymore at these signs and wonders churches and pastors. Why? “Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do” rings clearer for me than ever. It does not mean these churches are evil either and neither should I condemn them or judge them. It gave me a wider scope of compassion and of God.
I recommend reading Watchman Nees book, Latent Power of the Soul. He warns of this very thing, false revival in incredible detail. Carl Jungs book, Seven Sermons of the Dead also touches on the danger of spirituality when it tends to tap into soul power and kundalini. Yes, kundalini is mentioned. Have not finished that book as of yet, but for now, I know enough to stay away from those churches.
Blessings to you all! I am thankful for Mr. Stroms ministry and his work. I am thankful for everyone who had prayed for me. I encourage you to continue to minister, pray, and discuss on this forum. I like to think that this forum is like a precious jewel, or one of Gods headquarters for spiritual warfare as we all continue to fight the good fight. This is like top secret information. Because as it appears, many die hard Christians, worship leaders, and pastors I have talked to have no idea of kundalini or the effects of the Toronto outpouring and the division it caused. So consider us all blessed to know God more intimately and to be in this forum helping and edifying each other. Thank you, all. Me and my wife thank you. Praise be to God!