With tears in my eyeys I cried,
but I guess I am just a petulant child,
Grown enough to know its all my fault,
Where was that day when it all made sense,
childhood was simple and I long for the day,
I cannot go back I do not know the way,
I know the Way but what can I say,
His Way or the Highway,
I dont want to get lost in the lane change,
On the first day warm in HIs arms,
everday since I seem to be to far,
not from HIs love but far from HIs plan,
What was I born for my God who became Man?
I tried my whole life since that first day to give it all away,
I rage inside, if I could I would make every demon pay,
If I could be the sword from your mouth I would destroy in glee,
but I also am a hipocrit please do not detstroy me,
I am left mourning all those I see dying,
ever other breath is reserved for lying,
sometimes my tears are dry when I feel like crying,
I thoguht life was family and love,
means nothing if you do not have God above, and the God of here and He is the God of below,
I just wanted to make my Father happy before I had to go,
right of this mortal coil into a deep hole,
In the end all I have done is for nought,
If the good fight is not fought,
I once wanted a crown,now when I die I just do not want to go down,
to a place thats so hot it gives me the chills,
to think the lake of fire consuming and never geitn its fill.
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You say: His Way or Highway,
Forgive me for asking, do you truly know that Christ Jesus is The Way - or are you undecided..?
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I am decided about Him His way Is the Highway or I am a terible capitalization user my bad it was not rehersed it came as it fell from my heart.
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Roger,
.... or is this person a "wounded warrior" in the rough? :)
dudewheresmyfire, feel free to send me email at jallans@yahoo.com
Are you in the USA? My work schedule is all over the map currently, but perhaps we can get on the phone and hang out.
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I am sorry I have no outlets I wil leave
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This is a pretty good poem, btw. Really from the heart I think.
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I agree with that John - I read it as a genuine cry from the heart.
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dude - keep seeking, I will be praying.
Roger
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No need to leave dwmf. I relate to your poem probably more than you may suspect is possible, though I don't know. I too had no outlets, hated every Christian on the face of the earth not 12 months ago. God has been very patient with me, and has brought healing, very sloooowly. I pray you also find the healing you desire. I identify with your hurt, friend. I hope you'll continue to post.
Cory
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Thanks for the poem, It reminded me a little of this Keith Green song. Unfortunately we go through these battles at times, but be encouraged to persevere.
My Eyes are Dry Keith Green
My eyes are dry, my faith is old,
My heart is hard, my prayers are cold,
And I know how I ought to be,
Alive to you, and dead to me.
Oh what can be done, for an old heart like mine,
Softer it up, with oil and wine.
The oil is You, Your Spirit of love,
Please wash me anew, in the wine of Your blood.
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freedom of speech is GOD given
Freedom of speech is an American consitution thing not a God endorsed thing.
God says we will all be accountable for every word. We are also told that what is in our hearts will be revealed by the words we use.
Edit: the quote above is from a now deleted abusive post that contained crude language; it came from a person who had been shown a great deal of grace and concern by other forum members
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dude keep posting and writing...some of us are prepared to accept where you are at, and grow with you through new experience.
God Bless and be encouraged
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Hope, you clearly didn't see what "dude" wrote in his last (now deleted) post.
Several people tried to reach out to him and give him help but the reponse to it wasn't good.
John Sutton gave him the opportunity to get into personal contact off-forum. Maybe he'll do that.
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dude, - I hear the cry of your heart & I cry with you.
You know that whatevers in our heart comes out of our mouth.
We obviously need a clean heart!To get that, we need to find a quiet place, get down on our knees. cry out to the Lord, and sincerely repent of all known sins.
Ask God's forgiveness.
Thank Him that He died on the Cross & for His blood which cleanses us from our sins.Ask Him to fill us to overflowing with His Holy Spirit.
Discipline ourselves to think before we speak, choosing our words wisely.
Words are powerful, they give life or death.
We must not abuse anyone.
We must try to speak in love & act in love, as representatives of God.When those who know us are convinced that we've become a new creation, they will take us seriously & we can together begin to turn the world upside down.
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No I didn't see what he had writtnd...thats saddens me, I like to be encourageing even when people are still seeking the right place, perhpas even more so when they haven't yet found it, how else will they find their way.
But it is sad when things turn abusive, it hurts not only those the abuse is directed towards, but also the one who hurls the abuse.
Sad Sad Sad
God Bless
HopePosted 1 year ago # -
Is it just me or does something seem wrong, out of joint, and evil here today? God bless all with peace and His healing Grace.
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A very very sad day indeed, my friend.
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And for my part, I am very sorry indeed for everything that has happened here today.
But sadly the damage is lasting in a number of instances, and we cannot go back.
One of those days that makes me regret we ever started a Forum. Or makes me wonder if we should just shut it all down.
Bless you - and my sincere apologies to all for the dispute that occurred today.
-Andrew Strom.
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