With tears in my eyeys I cried,
but I guess I am just a petulant child,
Grown enough to know its all my fault,
Where was that day when it all made sense,
childhood was simple and I long for the day,
I cannot go back I do not know the way,
I know the Way but what can I say,
His Way or the Highway,
I dont want to get lost in the lane change,
On the first day warm in HIs arms,
everday since I seem to be to far,
not from HIs love but far from HIs plan,
What was I born for my God who became Man?
I tried my whole life since that first day to give it all away,
I rage inside, if I could I would make every demon pay,
If I could be the sword from your mouth I would destroy in glee,
but I also am a hipocrit please do not detstroy me,
I am left mourning all those I see dying,
ever other breath is reserved for lying,
sometimes my tears are dry when I feel like crying,
I thoguht life was family and love,
means nothing if you do not have God above, and the God of here and He is the God of below,
I just wanted to make my Father happy before I had to go,
right of this mortal coil into a deep hole,
In the end all I have done is for nought,
If the good fight is not fought,
I once wanted a crown,now when I die I just do not want to go down,
to a place thats so hot it gives me the chills,
to think the lake of fire consuming and never geitn its fill.
